It’s been a little over a year since my whole being really started coming back to life. Since that dreadful day when I received the tragic news that my health was drastically deteriorating, and hope seemed to be lost. I refused to accept that faith, and I sort my Heavenly Father for answers and reached into my inner-soul and pulled out strength with a determination that I knew I could make it. I’m back on my feet now, and am grateful for a full recovery.
I, however, often wondered why? Why was I plagued with such despair? Why me? I’ve prided myself as being a good person, and doing good by others. Why did this befall me? I searched my heart looking for answers, and one day the light bulb came on. I got it now!! It was all because of me. I brought this on myself. I was sleeping with the enemy. The enemy of WORRY, ANXIETY, STRESS, CONFUSION, ANGER, etc. into my life. I welcomed all these dysfunctions to take control of me. I allowed people into my space with major issues, that sucked me literally dry, and zapped all of my strength. I allowed myself to be a sponge and I became saturated until I was on overload. When situations would occur that was upsetting or completely “out of control”, I did not put a stop to it, I continued to allow it to happen, month-after-month, year-after-year, and I did NOTHING about it. People only do to you what you allow.
Finally, after not taking control of these situations, they manifested themselves into health conditions that threatening my emotional and eventually, physical well-being. It makes sense to me now. As a result of having this second chance, to “right” the “wrong”, I can now dismiss “unnecessary stress” out of my life. After coming to this realization, I can maintain a lifestyle more conducive to overall wellness. When I find myself in an uncomfortable setting, I can immediately dismiss it without consideration.
Oh yes, the elders use to tell me that “life will teach you valuable lessons”. I understand now!! As a result of the pain that I’ve suffered, in order to circumvent unnecessary health challenges, and keep my emotional well being in place, and live an abundant life, I’ve come to realize that “I Had To STOP SLEEPING WITH THE ENEMY”!!